The Idea of personality! (upgrade yourself)

       Personality-1.[C,U] person's character; a strong~ 2.[C] famous person, esp from entertainment, sport etc.
      Some of us believe that a character is given to us at the moment of birth, that it is a mix of parents qualities, or you have someones (relative's) character. Well, I cannot disagree, part of it is truth, I also believe that the treatment of a baby right from the time of it's development in mothers womb also plays a role, but there is one thing of which I am a true believer, it is that, no matter what kind of personal qualities you have, you can change and develop them according to your ideas, so basically I believe that people are capable of creating their own character. I think it is one of the most magical things, because each of us can make a choice, and when I say this I don't mean copying, I mean actual "creating of yourself" But taking decisions is also a part of creating, so if your choice is to copy someone, well, go ahead, do it, but I honestly don't think it can make anyone happy.
       What I've noticed (and I'm sure you did too) is that too many people around me post and share some really smart-ass-quotes which isn't bad at all, but for me, most of them are either not because I understand them in some different way but because people who share them are mostly the ones who don't live according to those quotes, and the question is why does that happen? why most of people like to share some smart-morally-right-quotes (things) and then continue living like before, some don't even remember what they've shared, and sad truth is that quotes and different posts, like this for example, get your attention only for a short time, while you read them and information is given to your brain, but they always are so brief and uncertain that some of people don't even realise how to use them in real life. Because no one ever tells you "Hey, you, when you'll be passing that gypsy in underground, give him money if you have some" or "Don't lie to your mother, She'll find this out and give you hard time about it!" or "Don't bully that girl in the hall, and don't look at her giggling, she may commit suicide" we get such information, but we don't think that you are the one who may save or kill someone, without doing anything special.(So you're probably thinking I've lost connection with headline, but no, wait) So people who post good things, teaching everyone how to live right and preach...but  at the same time don't live according to those preaching's what do they want and why do they do that? No, I want to think they aren't fake...My idea is that, It is a lot easier to create yourself, the idea of yourself, which you like, in social network, because, people'll judge you from what you post and you decide to make a good impression. But people don't understand that life is same thing, it doesn't matter how many people will see your good act or your good quality, you'll be honest with yourself, the only person who's always with you and whom you should value-yourself. Act according to what you say, all you have to do for that is stop for a minute before you make a decision and think over if you really can fulfill your promise, or what exactly do you want in this case? and so on and on, question yourself! I know some of you may say this is faking because if you over-think you act unnatural, well, such lovers of nature can go to woods and live in neighbourhood with wild animals, because that is the most natural thing to do. But people let's face it we are humans, we have power to think and develop ourselves, you are the result of 3.8 billion years of evolutionary success, act like it!
         I believe that there are no bad people, no one is born rude or wicked, but it is your choice, to be or not to be...

         So for those ones who are really into self-improvement I have some advice, take a piece of paper and write down all things that you want to improve or change, it doesn't matter how many things there'll be, I have 8 things which I accepted as a plan for 2015 I hung this list right above my desk (the place where I'm spending majority of my time) So I see it everyday and re-read it every day (sometimes few times each day) and whenever there is a hard decision to make I think "Okay, so what did I promise myself?" On my list I have: *check picture*
       So this is an example of few things I have on my list, It really cheers me up at times and helps me to become a person I want to be, to gain a personality that I like!  
       P.S. Don't forget to smile today, you're just great! send me your lists if you make any, next post is going to be about self-confidence tricks...and walking manner?! i don't know tell me what you think? ;)
                                        Love Always,
                                                          Sally.

Love...The Fault In Our Stars! (Spoiler Alert)

So Hi everyone! Sorry for not posting, this year is going to be one of the hardest years I've had so far, but  I pinkie-promise you that I'm going to post a lot more in this year! So this post is going to be one of  the most personal posts that I've ever published because I'm taking it right from my diary... Yes, I'm that one person who keeps a diary even now and doesn't give up! (you probably think it's impossible for someone who doesn't post here at all, but I like writing on paper a lot more and I do it very often!) This "thing" I wrote in my old diary it's dated 02/03/14 so it's pretty old, but I wrote it the day I finished reading the Fault in our stars, and since people are so overwhelmed by it now I decided to publish it!
                Dear Diary,
                     Today I finished reading "The fault in our stars" which I basically started to read yesterday, and whole today-day I was sitting in my room reading and crying, I couldn't stop my veil of tears streaming down my face...
                   I don't think any other book can give you such feeling, you just sit there like....You killed Augustus in few Chapters that I read in less than one hour....I hate you John Green (Because of your genie and all)...I hate you....OKAY?!....Yeah spoiler : Hazel doesn't die, at last her death is not told, but Augustus Waters, that one perfect guy of 21st century with whom you fall in love, dies, not by accident, he does have cancer....And that's what you get after reading a book, perfect guy dead and veil of tears streaming down your face uncontrollably, well and maybe that "pathetic little man, dependent upon alcohol" Peter Van Houten.... The book starts with a quote from his book 'An Imperial Affliction'....I think I should have written my emotions right after reading a book, because right after you read it is what really matters, after some time you get rid of the feeling you've got and you start to make an analysis of what happened in a book, but it doesn't matter  it's a side effect of a book, what really matters is the feeling you get after reading it...and I just made up a theory that books with bad ending make you ache more from them, but what is actually a "bad-ending"? usually people call "bad-end" when one of characters dies and that's it, whenever someone dies you consider a book sad and all, but fact is that I'm not sad that characters die, in first place they are real people, I know it's a fictional book, but I also know that to make up such a good story you should be inspired by someone so I think at last few characters had something, or more than something, in common with real people and trouble is that after about 40-50 or sometimes less pages they stop being fictional characters and turn out to be real people, and about bad endings....Trouble is that "bad endings" are real, life is not a fucking wish-granting factory and that's what depresses...Everyone wants to be loved and no one wants to be a grenade, no one wants to die and hurt people and of course no one wants to lose the one's they love. Everyone wants to be special,

             "Almost everyone is obsessed with leaving a mark upon the world. Bequeathing a legacy. Outlasting death. We all want to be remembered.I do, too. That's what bothers me most, is being another unremembered casualty in the ancient and inglorious war against disease.
              I want to leave a mark. But Van Houten : The marks, humans leave are too often scars. You build a hideous minimall or start a coup or try to become a rock star and you think, "They'll remember me now," but (a) they don't remember you, and (b) all you leave behind are more scars. Your coup becomes a dictationship. Your minimall becomes a leison. (-------)
             We are like a bunch of dogs squirting on fire hydrants. We poison the groundwater with our toxic piss, marking everything MINE in a ridiculous attempt to survive our deaths. I can't stop pissing on fire hydrants. I know it's silly and useless- epically useless in my current state- but I am an animal like any other.
             Hazel is different. She walks lightly, old man. She walks lightly upon the earth. Hazel knows the truth: We're as likely to hurt the universe as we are to help it, and we're not likely to do either.
            People will say it's sad that she leaves a lesser scar, that fewer remember her, that she was loved deeply bit not widely. But it's not sad, Van Houten. It's triumphant. It's heroic. Isn't that the real heroism? like the doctors say: First, do no harm.
             the real heroes anyway aren't the people doing things; the real heroes are people NOTICING things, paying attention. The guy who invented the smallpox vaccine didn't actually invent anything. He just noticed that people with cowpox didn't get smallpox.
             After my PET scan lit up, I snuck into the ICU and saw her while she was unconscious. I just walked in behind a nurse with a badge and I got to sit next to her for like ten minutes before I got caught. I really thought she was going to die before I could tell her that I was going to die, too. It was brutal : the incessant mechanized haranguing of  intensitive care. She had this dark cancer water dripping out of her chest. Eyes closed. Intubated. But her hand was still her hand, still warm and the nails painted this almost black dark blue and I just held her hand and tried to imagine the world without us and for about one second I was a good enough person to hope she died so she would never know that I was going, too. But then I wanted more time so we could fall in love. I got my wish, I suppose. I left my scar.
            A nurse guy came in and told me I had to leave, that visitors weren't allowed, and I asked if she was doing okay, and the guy said :She's still taking on water". A desert blessing, an ocean curse.
            What else? she is so beautiful you don't get tired of looking at her. You never worry if she is smarter than you : you know she is. She is funny without being mean. I love her. I am so lucky to love her, Van Houten.You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world, old man, but you do have some say in who hurts you. I like my choices. I hope she likes hers"
                   I do, Augustus.
                   I do."

        And that's how book ends... And every time I re-read his letter my eyes become watery (and i read it 5 times already) and sad thing is : those of us who are smart, realise all that Augustus talks about, but not everyone is strong enough to accept it and that's the trouble.
        Another thing is, the love they shared..."She walks lightly," "she is so beautiful you don't get tired looking at her"  " You never worry if she is smarter than you : you know she is" "She is funny without being mean" " I love her."
        Show me a guy who can love like Augustus...but no, that's the trouble, everyone accepts love as a game, they take it like a competition...To love like Gus and Hazel you should be over 30, and some people even more.
        I think the book is great although I want to know What happened to Isaac?! did he get robot eyes?! did he get a girlfriend?! and what did Gus's parents do with a basement, did they keep it just the way it was?!
       But honestly I'm just so sad Augustus died that I can't stop crying, if I ever get to meet John Green I'll tell him that he's one of genius writers, he's a hell of a writer in fact, but I hate him. But that's the thing about books, the ones which are purely genius always have tragic end, and the ones with happy ending are rarely considered as great, and quickly forgotten.
       In " For whom the bell tolls" Hemingway writes :

       " I did not know that I could ever feel what I have felt, he thought. Nor that this could happen to me, I would like to have it for my whole life. You will, the other part of him said. You will. You have it now and that is all your whole life is; now. There is nothing else than now. There is neither yesterday, certainly, nor is there any tomorrow. How old must you be before you know that? there is only now, and if now is only two days, then two days is your life and everything in it will be in proportion. this is how you live a life in two days.
        And if you stop complaining and asking for what you never will get, you have a good life. A good life is not measured by any biblical span."

       and this is what bothers me. Augustus and Hazel were lucky to have each other to know that you really love and to be loved back, yes they didn't  live together long happy life, but how many people do? How many people actually find that one and only person and live long happy life with them? what does statistic say?! There is no statistic of such thing, anyone can consider oneself a happy person if one compares to worse, but we always aim for more and therefore are rarely really happy, and that's the fault of our stars. An the ones who find real love always aim more time and they rarely get it and think they are unlucky, but most of people live their whole life not even finding that one and only person. and if you find that one person, even 2 days should be enough.
       But "earth rarely moves" for us and we live life thinking we're okay...."  
       So this is what i wrote in my diary and if you guys have something to share about this book you're welcome!              
                                                        Love Always,
                                                                Sally.

        

#tbh Who wants to give up on society and go live in a tree house with me?! (sociology- sociopath )

 So...A while ago one person, who knows me from distance, asked me, or better say stated that I'm probably a sociopath, which meant I'm afraid of society...(it's total bullshit) And I said I am not a sociopath, but I'm just thinking a lot, which is the only thing I'm completely sure of, sometimes I can be so drown in my thoughts that I'll make things mechanically, I can meet my mother at such state and ignore her as if she's a stranger. To be honest I'm still figuring out is it's a good or a bad thing....Same stuff is about books, if I'm reading I can't notice anything around me unless someone touches my shoulder or bumps into me so that i can come back to earth from my trance.  

     And well, what can I say about society? (I can actually say a lot but...) Am I afraid of it?! Um, NO, I am sure that I have no sparkle of fear towards society...Disgust? YES, of course. So am I trying to run away from society? Partly yes, I'm not running or anything, but I just don't get involved too much, unless something drives me crazy! (mostly it's injustice or someones absurd actions.) Reason why I do so? Well...I realised long ago that turning society to something good is one of impossible things, because our society is full of wicked, stupid people which is one of worst mixes, I keep finding hundreds of morally imperfect people (I'm not saying about outer beauty, but about inner one) most of people I meet are so dull, empty and cold...sometimes they make me physically shiver.

       So do I hate society? And again, no. For me feeling of hatered is something I'll never fall to, it's below my level and I can surely say that I don't hate anyone or anything I may dislike something or I may feel disgusted, but I never really hate, hatered is stupid, empty feeling which makes the "feeler" of it suffer more than the object of hate.All I feel is disgust which I, sometimes, can't hide, I'm learning not to make people notice how I really feel about them, because in different way it'll only bring up drama which is unnecessary. I've had no dramas for last 2-3 years. I just take it all easy (and of course I don't count family dramas in here) 

    So you may think that I'm a boring and weird person maybe even psycho, but I wont complain. I can actually have fun, but I don't like wasting my time with wrong people with whom I can't even really have fun, and hang out with them just 'cause I have nothing else to do. To be honest I'm one of those people who always has something to do, I can't sit and do just nothing. 

    But, I'm not hiding and I'm not afraid, I'm not a sociopath...For god's sake! I am maybe weird and some people get me very wrong, which doesn't bother me at all , but there are people who get effected by others opinions....So please people before making any conclusions, talk to a person and get to know them better! I think we've all learned a lot about prejudices from Jane Austen...

                                                                                                 Love Always,

                                                                                                                Sally.                                            

Life as I know it (Art)

If it doesn’t come bursting out of you in spite of everything, don’t do it.Unless it comes unasked out of your heart and your mind and your mouth and your gut, don’t do it.
If you’re doing it for money or fame, don’t do it.
If you’re doing it because you want women in your bed,
 don’t do it.If it’s hard work just thinking about doing it,
 don’t do it.If you have to wait for it to roar out of you, 
then wait patiently.If it never does roar out of you,
 do something else.

Unless it comes out of your soul like a rocket, unless being still would drive you to madness or suicide or murder, don’t do it.Unless the sun inside you is burning your gut, don’t do it.When it is truly time,
 and if you have been chosen, It will do it by itself and it will keep on doing it until you die or it dies in you.There is no other way.

And there never was.Charles Bukowski.         

   

     For someone those words have no common with  the name of post, but for me it has, although I know that Bukowski meant art, something that you create...But isn't you life also your creation?!Aren't you the one who has the brushes and paint?!The one who is standing in front of a white canvas?! Some people are going to say "Maybe you can control your life,but there are people who cannot do it, not because they don't want, but because there are things which control them..."And well I might also tell you that in everyone's life there may be things  which one did not choose, things which you can't change, and that's the frame of your canvas, no matter if you like it or not everyone has that frame, you can't draw past it, but you have whole canvas inside, although many of us forget it, they try to prove that they can do anything and that they can draw past this frame, which is unnecessary as long as your canvas is still white.Some people have it worse, they have a frame and spotted canvas, so they give up on whole painting just because of few spots.
    what I'm trying to say is that you may have different circumstances, but don't forget that you are the one who has brushes and paint.Why not make your spots an addition to your painting?! Or cover them?! you would still know that spots are there, underneath, but they don't ruin your painting.Oh and frame! Now tell me, when you go to gallery what do you look at? at painting or at frame?! you may like frame or you may not like it, but you know it has nothing to do with the artist.
     And here comes the definition. People who love their life just paint on their canvas, no matter what others say they paint what they want, it comes roaring out of them, and they don't try to stop it.But some people are afraid, they start to look at other canvases and think they can never do better, so why even try? they think their abilities are not enough, they start to complain about frame, or spots, and it continues until someone will just lead their hand and make them draw something they didn't want to draw, and they start to blame that person...But a simple life lesson which art taught me is: when you have a canvas, brushes and paint just let your heart make decision and paint whatever comes roaring from inside of you, it doesn't matter if someone is better, just do your best and don't be afraid of making mistakes, they can be covered, and i swear that when you're done you'll be proud of yourself, and you'll love it.You will love both, the process and the result.
                                                                                                   Love always,
            Sally.

here are two of my drawings to let you know where this post comes from...

This drawing was inspired by Ed Sheeran's music, it's one of my favorites. 

"13 reasons why" I started to write Poetry...

"A poem begins as a lump in the throat, a sense of wrong, a homesickness, a lovesickness" (or a society sickness) -Robert Frost 

  So today I'm here to reveal what was the turning point, which made me write poetry...Some of you know (I mean my friends) and some of you guess that I started to write poetry. I'm gonna say it right now that I'm not going to publish any poems except one, here or anywhere else, just not yet.
 So it all started one Monday when I had to study physics, (let my physics teacher and all the rest who love physics forgive me) I hate physics, or better say I hate when I have to stupidly study something by heart,  the worst is that no one ever explains why the hell I should know all that stuff and how I can use it....So feeling as stupid and as down as possible I was just scratching something in my notebook when the idea of writing, first visited me and I wrote :   

“What if I am a dreamer? 
The one you’ve never known. 
You think I’m not unusual, 
But what if you are wrong?! 
You say I’m not talanted, 
But what if you cant see 
The way I am talanted 
In something you can’t be 
And maybe I am usual, 
And maybe I am wrong, 
But still I am a Dreamer. 

The one you’ve never known                                                                                                                                                             So this was first piece of poetry I have ever written, there was nothing I changed or...I don't know this is how it came out , and then when I finished it and re-read it I liked it very much, too much even maybe, and I decided to write something else, just to try if it was a one time thing or I can really write, so I wrote second one the same evening few minutes after first, and the first person with whom I shared my first poem was my English teacher Oksana, whom I immediately texted it and she liked it very much, and on the next day I had her lesson and she read second one too and she asked why did it happen, like, what inspired me maybe, and for that time I had no answer, so I just explained it was a way not to study Physics, since that she calls my poetry physics, which I explain as physics of ones soul maybe....So after over-thinking I finally remembered that before that Monday evening I read some pieces of poetry on tumblr and it all started from reading a book by Jay Asher " Thirteen reasons why" If you read it you should know that Hannah (a girl from a book) wrote poetry and there is this part :

 "Then without even trying, I memorized the very first poem in that book. And no matter how hard I try, I can’t seem to shake it from my head even today. So here it is, for your appreciation …or amusement" and there was poem, I even made a drawing for it, in case you can't read it, it says :

"If my love were an ocean,
there would be no more land.
If my love were a desert,
you would see only sand.
If my love were a star-
late at night, only light.
And if my love could grow wings,
I'd be soaring in flight. "

So just like Hannah says, this "poem from Monet's" just stuck in my head, and I still think it is one of the best poems I ever read in English, because most of poems I've read have no rhythm, which I'm so desperately searching for, and I think I got pretty good in it...
  To finish this post somehow...I'll tell you that for me poetry became a new way of self expression, before, I was drawing and showing people something through colors, but now I can make them feel the same thing I'm feeling, and make them think about same things, so my new "goal" kind of is to collect those poems and publish them! to be honest it sounds silly a bit "Sally, now as a poet...." I don't know to be honest I just want to give it a try, maybe because I really enjoy doing this....And partly because I feel that there are many things I can talk about. Here are two other poems I like, I have even written them in my diary.

                                                  Love Always,
                                                       Sally.

Who you are?!

  So not that I'm trying to show anyone their mistakes or anything, but all I want is to make people think of who they really are.

   Some people say that personality is everything about you, and mostly in such cases people mean what you wear and what you like also how you do act...That's  all important but people never ask you of your insecurities or fears.How many of you met a person who told you they want to know you better and then just ask what your favorite movie,song,color etc. is ? Guys if you call it "knowing a person well" then I don't know anyone, not even my best friend...for ex. I don't have favorite movie, nor song, not color and not even book, there are too many things that I like and love, I can't tell you only one and say no to all the others...SO lately I am thinking a lot about my personality and the way I act, and what I found out is that most of my habits or things I do, are caused by my fears or insecurities so I think it's the most important thing about person, It's not enough to know how someone acts you should also know why they act one way or another and I really dislike this saying " It doesn't matter who you are, what matters is who you want to be" Seriously?! maybe who you are now, doesn't matter but for me who you want to be doesn't matter either if you're doing nothing and just sitting in one spot and saying how you want to change. What matters is how hard are you trying to become someone you want to be, but sad thing is that everyone understands it as "go copy someone you like" and the excuse is always "I just like same things, we have same taste" well me and my best friend might like same things and even buy same shirts or something but we still are different we have other clothes which are not alike, we have different styles, different tastes, we listen to different music, we are not copies of each other and what I'm trying to say is that when someone asks you "who do you want to be?" you should never think of someone else and search for someone else's name, you should think of who you are now and how do you want to develop yourself, and late at night when you dream about being on someones place better try to over think your actions and understand why do you act one way or another and why do you like this or that. If you don't know  yourself how can you know some other person...i don't want this post to be too long so if you have questions or any ideas just comment and let me know what you think, if you agree or disagree!

So The Smiths song asleep is in this post because whenever I think of my personality it just pops in my head and it makes me feel the way I love to feel, peaceful and free. It is just amazing and iI would like you all to listen to it.

Incident which left children heartbroken...

  So...I know that I'm posting rarely, but honestly I think it's because I don't like typing, seriously if I could write my posts in a notebook and design it there and then just publish somehow it'll be great 'cause for me hand-writing is a lot more fun...
                Now about title of this post, every year at this time people who graduate from school have exams (in Georgia it is so) and this year was the same of course except one incident. if someone doesn't know we have (right now we have, idk what would happen next year because everything depends on governments mood i guess) 8 exams to end school first 4 you pass at the end of 11th grade and next 4 you pass at the end of 12th grade and that's how you graduate school , all exams are passed on computer, but this year on English exam the computer programme messed up and questions were coming with two right answers, but that's not such a problem, problem is that children who REALLY KNOW ENGLISH got bad points, they passed but how would you feel if you know something really well and they give you low mark?! worse is that you can do nothing , you can not prove that you are right because computer doesn't save your answers. Teachers got that something was wrong so they called to Ministry of Education and the answer was shocking you know what they said?! "well, you didn't fail right? so if you passed why the mark matters!" and what about children who want to go aboard, to continue studies there? why someone who can get best mark should not get it and not be given second chance, just because something in the system messed up...It's very unfair and dishonest towards those children and their parents and their teachers...Funny thing is that Ministry of Education later (at 9 o'clock) wrote on their page that they were taking 5 points off for every wrong answer, and it still doesn't make any sense because children who knew subject got all answers right. Same happened on Georgian and history exam and i cant express how disappointed I am because government steals every hope of justice and it is very unfair....

   

Life is a Game

                                                  "You have to learn the rules of the game
                                                      and then you have to play better than
                                                                                       anyone else"
                                                                                                   -Albert Ainstein
                    It's not a surprise for anyone that life is a game, sometimes you win, sometimes you learn.I don't like saying lose because for me losing is not an option, if you don't win you learn something new, learning doesn't mean losing. And by the way you can not always win and for sure you can't lose your "life game".
                   Everything in life happens on purpose, some people believe it's luck or faith and well, these two things are good miracles to believe in, but I prefer to think that these people who blame luck in bad things that happen to them, are just too fool to realize their real luck and aren't smart enough to learn from their own life mistakes.
                    In this life game mostly naive and kind people get all the wrong and bad things. I agree that kindness is very important, but not when your kindness toward someone or something means self-harm. If you're doing something good you must never expect it to be returned to you, or to get paid for your act of kindness. If you expect the world to be fair with you because you are fair, you're fooling yourself. That's like expecting the lion not to eat you because you didn't eat him.
                   Honestly what I've learned is that better you act, you get worse treatment, I know that this is not true due to everyone and for sure this mustn't be an excuse for treating people badly, but it's truth and not to be hurt in future you must know it. That's one of rules of this game we call "life" nowadays. In fact rules are different for different people, you choose to be a player or a toy.
                  What about me?- well, I'm honestly felling very comfortable in my role as the coach. Thought I know that game has already started, and i wont be able to stay on my position for long, But i follow the basis rule for me that says "Change the game, don't let the game change you" I understand it simply: life can get hard and you may feel very bad, but despite all those struggles be who you are and never give up, because once you change you'll never be the same and that means losing, losing not only the game but also yourself which is much more scary. Just keep in mind that God tests everyone equally to their abilities, you cant be a winner without even starting a race, and for sure you can't be the best player if you don't compete with others.
                Life is a game.You can play it safe and be good, or you can take a chance and be the Great. just remember choice is up to YOU.

Too many High Hopes too many disappointments! (The Great Gatsby)

              "No telephone massage arrived but the butler went without his sleep and waited for it until four o'clock- until long after there was anyone to give it to if it came. I have an idea that Gatsby himself didn't believe it would come and perhaps he no longer cared. If that was true he must have felt that he had lost the old warm world, paid a high price for living too long with a single dream. He must have looked up at an unfamiliar sky through frightening leaves and shivered as he found what a grotesque thing a rose is and how raw the sunlight was upon the scarcely created grass. A new world, material without being real, where poor ghosts, breathing dreams like air, drifted fortuitously about..." 

                                                    F.S. Fitzgerald
                                                                          The Great Gatsby
          People all around the world are different, all of us are, or pretend to be individuals. YET we all have something in common, such as hope, faith, wishes...I'll reveal a secret and say that everyone of us dream, maybe part of people doesn't realize that thing they always think of is their dream in fact...Part of us just doesn't want to admit they have dreams, but even realists dream sometimes.I think we all need to believe and have some dream because high hope is just the same, difference is how we call it and how easily we can give up.I think it is easier to give up your dream than your hope I don't know why I think so, maybe I'm wrong but somehow dreams are becoming unuseful in these days, it's not fashionable anymore to say you have a dream because  everyone mixes their dreams with their aims...Your dream can be your aim, but harder to reach then usual aim is, and your aim on the other hand can never be your dream, your dream, can be to reach your aim, but not aim itself.
      But even people who aren't dreamers and have no big plans for life, still have hope, hope is a thing that can keep you alive, can keep you from getting mad or else...It's scary to imagine life without hope, because there is no life without hope, we always have this feeling...When we're told that something is going to go wrong for 99% it is fact, but we all have this 1% that keeps us telling it still can go right for us.That 1% is hope that keeps us up and doesn't give us enough reason to give up.
      Life becomes kind of aimless without hope, people who don't have hope are Pesimists in a way or people who lost hope and now are  ruining their lives.
      Losing something is always hard, sometimes the smallest things have the biggest meaning, and losing of hope..I think losing hope itself is nearly  impossible, it's the thing that we hoped for that we can lose, but hope stays with us, we may think that we've lost it but then catch ourselves hoping for something. I think it's not high hopes that bring us many disappointments , but it's the hope for something that is not likely to happen , that hurts us in the end. If we hoped for simple things that are going to happen anyway, we'll have no disappointments at all, but that's not how hope works, When you have high hopes it means you are expecting something big and important and you should simply remember life lesson: Hope for the best, BUT expect the worst. because failure of our expectations brings much more disappointments and hurt than losing hope.

STOP living animals keychain/lucky charm in China! Chinese government kills small animals!

Guys I just found out about this and I'm really shocked! people in china sell these "lucky charms" or "jewelry" or whatever they call it, and they kill small animals by that! animals can't live in such circumstances longer than two months!I think we should put authors of this, people who sell this "jewelry" and also people who buy it in same "boxes" or whatever it is! lets see how they'll like it and how long can they live in such circumstances?! huh?! so guys let's help to stop this crazy "business" and save lives of small animals! http://www.avaaz.org/en/petition/Petition_contre_les_amulettes_danimaux_vivants_en_Chine/?fbdm <---- just go here and sign petition so Chinese government will stop this! please share this to your friends, I think we shouldn't leave it like that!

"The Picture of Dorian Gray"

         At first i have to say that people who don't know this book have nothing to do with this post, and people who read the book, well just try to understand me....
        I'm trying to analize what was the matter of  Dorian's tragic death, and things which I think about aren't pleasing me...At first I think that we can't blame Harry in what had happened to poor Dorian, because it was Dorian's fault. At first because he didn't listen , or trust, Basil who was his true friend (I wish I could find such a Friend) and he was influenced by Harry, who represents evil. But the story is of such kind that you may even blame fortune or luck if it exists of course...But just think how unbelievable and real the story is, artist who finds his object of admiration, worships him and finds this person pure and perfect, tragic is that he has friend, Lord Henry, who changes life of young led just by saying few words. But Dorian was so pure and untouched by the world that he had wild passion for knowing the world and devil itself. I think it's more of persons choice, if person chose to meet  devil or if they chose to meet god. I think that if you want to know something it's better to know it from books than to make your life dreadful, dishonest, fake and torture yourself with wrong steps and wrong actions. At the same time Lord Henry looks attractive for me, many people who read this book hate his character and admit him as cruel, wicked man who is pure devil. To be honest I just think that he is very smart and emotionless maybe even strong person who may have emotions but he professionally  masks them. i think that somewhere in his own boyhood he made mistake that was much worse than Dorian's and he became like that because he loved life too much to end it, so he just learned it from every side and made decisions. But I'm not quite sure of his reaction about Dorian's death he could cry or maybe just be disappointed, but maybe he'll be happy because he knew the result of his experiment. But he would always stay extravagant in his decisions. I even may suggest that he was more important character in whole story than Dorian himself, but name of book doesn't give me such opportunity nor does the end. (if there was Harry's reaction on Dorian's death then it may sound more realistic) Poor Dorian was spoiled but more by the power he was given than by Lord Henry!

Programme that eats phone battery on HTC

Guys today my phone "died" while I was in school and I can't understand what it is, so what actually happend is that my whone was on 100% when I went to sleep, in the morning it was on 57% idk why but I decided that I forgot to charge it or something so I let it charge while I was preparing for school, and it was 63% when I got to school (I listened to music on my way) and after about 2-3lessons it was on 29% I got scared a little because it batterie life is usually long, and when I got to battery settings and saw history there was this awful program that I have no idea of, but it was taking 90% of battery life O_o and it went to 8%in few minutes, I decided to restart or maybe turn of my phone but it didn't help it only became worse so I turned it off and than it was on 12% when I turned it on again and this thing was taking only 86% not 90% like it did before, so now I'm home and my phone is connected to charger this programme kind of stoped it something, but I'm really scared like what if it'll turn on again? Guys just if you know how to help me or what should I do just comment please =))

Choosing New Phone: HTC One X+ ,HTC One, Xperia Z, Xperia Sp, Samsung Galaxy, Iphone...

this is my first panel to left I use it more than any other!

this is how my 2nd panel to right side look

My morning, (it's actually midday but I wake up at that time usually)

Hey guys at first I want to say how sorry I am for not writing here all summer (I already said it in previous post, so this is for ones who didn't read it)  many things happened and sometimes I was busy sometimes lazy and finally I decided to write about mobile phones! Thing is that after long time of thinking I bought HTC ONE X+!!! while choosing phones I watched a lot of reviews and compared prices and all that stuff...To be honest I'm more than satisfied with what I bought, but mobile phone is very personal thing, of course most people know only about IPHONE and think that there is not any better phone, but I'll surprise all these people and say that there are a LOT of phones which are much better. I can't tell you that some phone out there is perfect because it all depends on your taste and your needs. At first for all people who don't know, there are different "platforms" for phones, for example mine is HTC sense, it's Android Platform, to make is easier let's say : There are Windows phone platform, Android platform and famous IOS, yup IOS is platform that Apple uses for their smartphones. Now how do we know which one is which? It's very easy guys Android phones have this "few desktops menu" -as i call it , that means that when you unlock phone you have few desktops or "panels" where you can put widgets and reconstruct it as you want (well, not always, but with HTC ONE X+ you can change anything) so from your desktop you can go to menu and all usual stuff. Windows platform means that you have mini computer which also calls! nowadays phones with this platform, such as NOKIA LUMIA, work like : you unlock it and there you go! No desktop no nothing you're immediately thrown to "menu" but with old phones with windows platform it was different, for XPERIA  X1 for example you had desktop and there you had "start" button  and all stuff just like on your computer, but XPERIA X1 was big, thick and used windows 6.1 as I remember... Well IOS is IOS I think everyone knows how it works, and again after unlocking you're immediately thrown to menu,  personally  I don't like it. People who use IOS usually complain that Android platforms are hard to understand and for them it's Chinese....(Sorry to my readers from China) So yeah, guys to be honest Android platform is VERY easy to use, I like that HTC gave me freedom to change absolutely everything!  I like that you can add oanels and arrange them as you want, you can even make folders right on "desktop" if you like it, and when I go to menu there I have 3 categories of menu it's : ALL ; Frequent and Downloads.for me it's just wonderful! My basis menu contains more than 12 pages! most of it are books :D so if I'll need something I'll ahve to scroll through there 12 pages, and it doesn't sound attractive for me especially when I need to check something quickly...but here I have solution "Frequent" it's one page of things that I use most of all, Apps which I download are in another group so it's easier to find them too! I believe that My phone has many pluses for me, these are : 1. "personalize" so I can make it more comfortable to use 2.Great 8mp camera (Iphone 5 has just the same camera and front one is 1.6 I can also take pictures out of vdeo while watching it, which I like just abnormally 3. 64.00GB of phone storage and with my 12 page menu, more than 300 songs  and 500 pics I use only 13.81GB and still have 50.19GB available! I also have this Dropbox, but I don't think that anyone is going to need it...Pff... with 64GB, KIDDING?! another plus of my phone I believe is it's thickness or not existence of it, 'cause it's only 8.9mm but because of it's big size it feels much slimmer...It's pretty big in size but I have big hands kind of...For me it's just PER-FECT  size :D another thing that i like about HTC phones is that their phones have really good quality, they make phones of iron ,aluminum, polycarbonate (my phone is made of it and it's pretty good, but gets dirty very easily) and they nearly don't use Plastic material which I think is awful ( It's hard to explain but I just really don't like phones with plastic details or something...) but don't think my phone is so perfect, it has minuses but I just don't count them as minuses, some people believe that camera is very easy to scratch because it makes this bump on back side...But, umm....Really guys?! I have it nearly 3 months and it barely has 1 scratch...well if you throw it on the ground or something, i don't know what can happen...And anyway, have you guys hard about phone cases?! that really helps if you're type who walks over their phone... another people say that it hurts when you hold it, like sides are too sharp...But hey! I cant even imagine how you hold it...sometimes when I have something heavy in my hand like bag or something and I'm trying to hold my phone in same hand I just hold it very tightly and in 10-15 min. it really hurts but guys take it easy please, it's not that sharp or something...others say that power button is on wrong place, that it's hard to turn it on or off to these I can only say : If you have such small hands what were you thinking about when you bought it?!! guys who play a lot say that battery life is very short...But, I'm a girl, i don't play like any games at all (I have few games just in case I get super bored) and sometimes my phone lives for 2 days without recharging, for me it's very good result 'cause my friends who have iphone have to recharge it every evening...So i wanted to talk about each phone itself but I guess it'll be too long so I'll give you advices. First of all you must know what do you want you'r phone for, if you are gamer you'll need good battery life and all that stuff...If you're like me you'll love HTC ONE X+, if you don't want such a big phone you can find something that suits you better you can find something from HTC , it's a good choice. If you're like my mom, who doesn't need her phone for anything except calls and massages then XPERIA Z, HTC ONE, IPHONE 5 is very good choice , but in that case you just choose design of phone you can buy anything you like, i personally agree with my mom that HTC ONE has very stylish &durable design, we like it in silver color, ZPERIA Z is good too , I like it in white color but it has it's minuses if you're interested write to me and I'll put videos of reviews that I think are useful, I like XPERIA SP 's design, that light at bottom of it is pretty cool, I wont say anything about SAMSUNG GALAXY because as I said I dislike phones of plastic material and to be honest what were they thinking of when they made GALAXY S4 with plastic back?! that's best they can do?! and it's just HUGE it's more like an Ipad that also calls...Iike IPHONE 5 design it's pretty good but they could make that phone much better....So guys I think I should end this here, So If you have any questions wrote me anywhere mail, twitter,blog chat...doesn't matter i'll answer you and give you advice if something although I'm not very good at it but I wanted to share what i know....

this one i took when my phone was turning off I just like it very much!

info. about my disappearing & new post!

Hey guys! I'm really sorry for not writing anything for so long time but I was kind of  busy and lazy, our family's friends from Chicago were visiting Tbilisi and to be honest I first met them but I had feeling like I knew them for 100 years, so I liked them very much and we became friends ^^ although it's not the basics reason why I wasn't writing...so... Now I just wanted to say that new post is coming out today, or maybe tomorrow morning... But not later, I promise! It's ready I just have to add few things and publish it... Guys please don't be angry on me and I hope I didn't disappoint you... So if you want to know what next post is going to be about I can just say that it's about mobile phones! Yes you got it right, I bought new phone and thought that maybe I can give few advices to you ^^which phone I got and which one I'll advice you to buy in different cases you'll know from next post! Thanks for reading my blog and reading my posts!

History of kinematographie! + list of movies U should see

       The history of film began in the late 1880s with the invention of the first movie camera. Most films before 1930 were silent.
       Initially, there were technical difficulties in synchronizing images with sound. It was clear that Edison originally intended to create a sound film system, which would not gain worldwide recognition untill the release of "The Jazz Singer" in 1927. However, there was still significant interest in motion pictures for films to be produced without sound. This is referred to as the silent era of film. However, to enchance the viewers experience, silent films were commonly accompained by live musicians and sometimes sound effects and even comentary spoken by the showman or projectionist.In most countries,intertitles came to be used to provide dialogue and narration for the film, thus dispensing with nurrators, but in Japance cinema human narration remained popular throughout the silent era. The technical problems were resolved by 1923.
       There was a non-commercial at tempt to combine the motion picture with a combination of slides and synchronize the resulting moving picture with audio. The film included hand-painted slides as well as other previouslt used techniques. Simultaneously playing the audio while the film was being played with a projector was required. This monumental production, released in 1915, was entitled "The Photo-Drama of Creation" and lasted eight hours.
         Movies were and are made for fun in my opinion, but at old times movies were serious and funny at the same time. For example Charley Chaplin, everyone thinks it's a comedy and it's funny but there is not much to laught about. It expresses the time he lived in, he shows real problems, but he did this in a "funny" way. it was really funny for one type of people and really serious for the other one, but everyone laughed. And it depends on mood. I think sometimes you just want to watch something to get fun , but sometimes you really want to watch something meaningful but you have to be in the mood of that, 'cause if you're not than you wont understand it right.
         If some of you have already seen movie "Hugo" than here's the short silent movie "Trip to the Moon" 1902! and the movie "Hugo" was based on truth I'm not saying that All of it really happened and is truth. (because I dont know that much) But I know that last part of the movie was lost for a really long time but they found it and there also is colorful verson of movie!
                                                         So hope you enjoyed it! (I know that here is very short history of kinematographie BTW... & i also changed blog and hope you like it!) XoXo your Sally =))
                           And as I promised.... 

       Here  is the list  of movies, Just good movies of all types!

    1.) Hugo
      2.)Erin Brockovich
      3.)Pretty woman
      4.)Midnight in Paris
      5.)In time
      6.) The Godfather
      7.) The green mile
      8.) The Vow
      9.) Lucky number Slevin
      10.) Saving private Ryan
      11.)Burlesque
      12.)Back to future 1,2,3
      13.) Clueless
      14.) Save the last dance 1,2
      15.) Drive me crazy
      16.) Varsity Blues
      17.) Mean girls 1,2
      18.) Never been kissed
      19.)  She's the man
      20.) What a Girl wants
      21.)Angus thongs and perfect snogging
      22.) 10 thing I hate about you 
      23.)Step up 1,2,3,4 
      24.) Sugar and spice 
      25.)Sleepover
      26.) How to deal 
      27.) The princess diaries 1,2 
      28.)Stick it 
      29.) Freaky friday
      30.)Bring it on 
      31.)Confession of a teenage Drama queen 
      32.)Romy and Michele's high school reunion
      33.)Green street holigans
      34.)Will 
      35.) Oceans 11,12,13 
      36.) 8 mile 
      37.) Modigliani
      38.) Moulin Rouge! 
      39.) The parent trap 
      40.) Get a clue 
      41.) Just my luck 
      42.) Georgia Rule 
      43.) Labor pains 
      44.) Casper meets Wendy 
      45.)Cadet Kelly 
      46.) Lizzie McGuire 
      47.) Agent Cody Banks 
      48.) Cheaper by the Dozen 1,2 
      49.) A Cinderella story
      50.) Raise your voice
      51.) The perfect man
      52.) Material girls
      53.)  Ghost Whisper
      54.) GRETA
      55.) The bussines of falling in love
      56.) Honey
      57.) Femme Fatale
      58.) The Lincoln Lawer
      59.) How to lose a guy in 10 days
      60.)Frailty
      61.)The wedding planner
      62.) Magic Mike
      63.) Lemonade mounth
      64.) Monster in-law
      65.)Breakfast at Tiffany's
      66.)Sherlock Holmes 1,2
      67.) The marrying man
      68.) The family man
      69.)Becoming Jane
      70.)The Nutcracker the untold story  
      71.) Intolerable Cruelty
      72.)Chronicles of Narnia (all parts)
      73.)French kiss
      74.) The Thomas Crown affair
      75.)The Mexican
      76.) St. Trinians 1,2
      77.) Wild child
      78.)Notting Hill
      79.)Mr. & Mrs. Smith
      80.)My best friends girl
      81.)Salt
      82.)The devil wears Prada
      83.)The Tourist
      84.) Friends with benefits
      85.) I, Robot
      86.)Marley & me
      87.) Autumn in New York
      88.) The Hangover 1, 2
      89.)Stuart little 1,2
      90.)Letters to Juliet  
      91.)Shallow Hal
      92.)Babe: Pig in the city 
      93.)Racing stripes
      94.)Nanny Mcphee 1,2 
      95.)Taxi (all parts) 
      96.) Maid in Manhattan
      97.)Remember me
      98.)Legally Blonde 1,2
      99.)From 13 to 30 
      100.)Nency Drew 
      101.)My sisters Keeper
      102.)Holy man 
      103.)Chalet girl 
      104.)Pelican Brief
      105.)My best friends wedding
      106.) Pride and Prejudice (1995)
      107.) Emma 
      108.)Run away Bride
      109.)Once upon a Time in Amereca 
      110.)Safe house 
      111.)Forrest Gump
      112.)Take the lead
      113.)Good luck chuck
      114.) LOL the movie  (both, French & Amerecan versions) 
      115.)Street Dance 2,3 
      116.)Dear john
      117.) What happens in Vegas 
      118.)Waiting for forever
      119.)Beastly
      120.)Harry Potter (all parts)
      121.)The time machine(2002)
      122.)King of California
      123.)Charls St. Claud
      124.)Babel
      125.)The kid
      126.)Hours
      127.)Gone with the wind
      128.)Argo
      129.)Lincoln: Vmpire hunter
      130.)Les Miserables
      131.)Catch me if you can
      132.)Atonement
      133.)Silver Lining playbook
      134.)Amour 
      135.)The Impossible
      136.)Someone flew over the cuckoo's nest
      137.)Life of Pie
      138.)The boy in a Stripped pijamas 

    139.)The Departed
      140.)The Curious case of Benjamin Button  
                                      It's all that I remember for now....