#tbh Who wants to give up on society and go live in a tree house with me?! (sociology- sociopath )

 So...A while ago one person, who knows me from distance, asked me, or better say stated that I'm probably a sociopath, which meant I'm afraid of society...(it's total bullshit) And I said I am not a sociopath, but I'm just thinking a lot, which is the only thing I'm completely sure of, sometimes I can be so drown in my thoughts that I'll make things mechanically, I can meet my mother at such state and ignore her as if she's a stranger. To be honest I'm still figuring out is it's a good or a bad thing....Same stuff is about books, if I'm reading I can't notice anything around me unless someone touches my shoulder or bumps into me so that i can come back to earth from my trance.  

     And well, what can I say about society? (I can actually say a lot but...) Am I afraid of it?! Um, NO, I am sure that I have no sparkle of fear towards society...Disgust? YES, of course. So am I trying to run away from society? Partly yes, I'm not running or anything, but I just don't get involved too much, unless something drives me crazy! (mostly it's injustice or someones absurd actions.) Reason why I do so? Well...I realised long ago that turning society to something good is one of impossible things, because our society is full of wicked, stupid people which is one of worst mixes, I keep finding hundreds of morally imperfect people (I'm not saying about outer beauty, but about inner one) most of people I meet are so dull, empty and cold...sometimes they make me physically shiver.

       So do I hate society? And again, no. For me feeling of hatered is something I'll never fall to, it's below my level and I can surely say that I don't hate anyone or anything I may dislike something or I may feel disgusted, but I never really hate, hatered is stupid, empty feeling which makes the "feeler" of it suffer more than the object of hate.All I feel is disgust which I, sometimes, can't hide, I'm learning not to make people notice how I really feel about them, because in different way it'll only bring up drama which is unnecessary. I've had no dramas for last 2-3 years. I just take it all easy (and of course I don't count family dramas in here) 

    So you may think that I'm a boring and weird person maybe even psycho, but I wont complain. I can actually have fun, but I don't like wasting my time with wrong people with whom I can't even really have fun, and hang out with them just 'cause I have nothing else to do. To be honest I'm one of those people who always has something to do, I can't sit and do just nothing. 

    But, I'm not hiding and I'm not afraid, I'm not a sociopath...For god's sake! I am maybe weird and some people get me very wrong, which doesn't bother me at all , but there are people who get effected by others opinions....So please people before making any conclusions, talk to a person and get to know them better! I think we've all learned a lot about prejudices from Jane Austen...

                                                                                                 Love Always,

                                                                                                                Sally.